Talked to my cowboy again, he's amazing... It's kinda hard to believe I feel this way this fast, and those of you who have any business reading this are probably thinking "oh shit, I know whats coming, please tell me Im wrong" well, your not wrong. I really think I love him.. hell I know I do. It's scary to feel like this again, especially after I swore to myself I wouldn't do this. oh well. Im doing it. He's everything I've been looking for, and then some. The best part is he feels the same way, or at least says he does. You all know me (all what, 4 of you?), I may not second guess my own feelings, but everyone elses are up for careful scrutiny and fear. I think that's the biggest thing, Im afraid he's going to be like Tim... and if he were, I would never know. This isn't napa anymore, I don't have the drama grapevine to hear about it, all I have is the sound of his voice. And that, I must say, is incredibly soothing. Im not afraid when Im actually talking to him, it's only late at night when Im alone and can't sleep, which is every night. ahhh the joys of mania. I want to be with him all the time, but I know that it would be incredibly unwise to take that step now, because to do that, I would have to move to Oklahoma, and I think my mother would lose it. My sister is worried that he's some kind of psychopath, but that's only because she hasn't met him, and all she really knows about him is that he knew me for 2 days before he asked me to go out to oklahoma to visit. I guess if we switched places, and she was taking off with some guy she'd just met, I'd be just as scared. But I know he wouldn't hurt me. Yesterday was a blast, we went out for a ride on the boat, which was exhilarating, and then we ran out of gas, which was hilarious. We were almost to our boat lift, and the engine shuts off. Dad couldn't get it to stay going, so before we drifted out, my sisters just dove into the water with the rope and pulled the boat to the lift, we put it up there manually. After that with them already soaked, we all just jumped in. My brother and I wound up swimming for almost an hour. Then the storms started rolling back towards us, and it was time for dinner anyway, so we went in. It was a great day... I also got to talk to Mike for a couple hours between yahoo and the phone. I miss him. I guess that's all for now..